A New Beginning

Like I mentioned in the earlier blog entry (yes this time I remember), I am having something of an early mid life crisis or maybe I just want to find a fancy name for it. I have found myself in this thing for quite some time now, I even started using it as a comfortable excuse for being a complete ass.

But today, I decided that things have to change. For the longest time, I have been plagued by the gnawing feeling of not belonging anywhere. I am studying literature yet somehow I don't feel like this is where I am supposed to be, I almost went to med school and that din't work out too well either. Sometimes, my life just feels like a series of desperate attempts to belong somewhere. And in this desperation, I tend to forget the simple things, I don't feel the joy anymore.

So, the self loathing and hatred have to go away. I have to start looking at things in the right perspective. Everytime I find myself clueless in a conversation doesn't have to be a comment on my lack of knowledge. Instead, it could be an opportunity to learn.

Everyday from now on, I will write about one thing I learnt today. It can be just about anything- the biography of Ingmar Bergman or the mundane fact that the famous sizzlers of Gola are not great after all.

It seems like the perfect day to start because we brought the tiniest kitten anyone has ever seen home today. She is adorable and we have called her Ninya. It's a good day to start afresh, isn't it?